OK so it started actually years ago when I was married to the father of my kids. There was this reporter on TV standing in the middle of a war zone and all I could think was wow! Who is this guy and why could I have not met him 3 years ago? I got hooked. Over the years I've seen him in war zones, hurricanes, interviewing influential people, and now his own daytime talk show. Yes I am referring to Anderson Cooper. I had a crush on him before it was cool. One more thing that shows my brain does not work the same way that the normal persons brain does. (and yes I know I'm not being great with grammar this time.)
So stop telling me to look for Mr. Right because I found him, there is just no chance we will ever meet.
Now as for putting off my surgery. Let me ask you this, if you were in pain 24/7 and were looking at having a surgery that requires about 6months of healing (IE pain) would you have it done? Probably not. So back off the surgery thing. I'll do it when I get the nerve. I work on pain tolerance every day. I put off taking my pain meds as long as possible to help build that up. I need to do this on my time.
I need to make something else clear. I am single because I want to be. I've been married before, twice. Obviously the second one didn't work. While I'm not ruling out marriage or dating, I'm saying not right now.
Here's why. My friends will all tell you I am an opinionated person. I don't suffer those that speak of things they don't know, like they are a pro on the subject well. Push me far enough and you see a side of me that you never want to see.
I took boxing lessons. Not something a lot of women do, but I wanted to do. I know football and hockey. I enjoy baseball and soccer but am not as versed on their rules as I am football. I read. I read A LOT! I watch BBC programs. Masterpiece theater is one of my favorite shows to watch on PBS. I am a HUGE Doctor WHO fan. I want to visit Cardiff and Ireland and Scotland. I want to see parts of the world that most people wouldn't care to see. I believe that God loves me and is teaching me a lesson with the medical condition.
I love to learn new things. I am proud of being partial Blackfoot Indian. You would never know that I am by looking at me. I want to be strong for my children. Well I guess I shouldn't say children, as they are both adults now. My son is going into the Navy, and my daughter is taking care of me. We don't have a lot of material things but they know I love them and that's good enough for them. My son has told me in the past the only man I'm allowed to marry is David Tennant, but that's not going to happen boobear so sorry.
So with all that in mind, now do you understand why I'm single? I don't think there is a man alive that could handle everything that I am, and had to become being a single mom. Most are too intimidated by me, and I'm OK with that. I'm happy watching Anderson Cooper and thinking what could have been had we meet years ago.... Oh and please stop trying to push some random guy on me. Really if he isn't Anderson Cooper, I'm pretty sure he won't measure up!
